Jacob Enoch DonDiego Wetzel

Missing you today baby boy.  It's harder when more of our family members are gone-Rae'lynn is in Canada on her choir tour so she is not here with us today.  I hope she will be okay.  This year marks your 5th year-the year when you would have started school with the kids.  I can't believe that you would have been that old-it's been a hard year b/c I should have had you at home still even though Maria was in school all day-the house felt empty without you.  I had to get some work to distract me from thinking about it.  I know you are probably involved in a great work there in heaven but I still miss you terribly and want to be raising you with our family so I can see how you interact together.  I will miss that part of you not growing up here on the earth-I have missed it. I have faith that I will be able to raise you again someday and you will be my little boy again and for now I'll just be as patient as I can be.  I love you baby, I'm thinking about you today and loving you in heaven.

Yesterday was your angel day and we missed you so much.  You are such a part of our family.  The kids and Daddy and I still have such a hard time letting go of you being here in person.  The kids all cried yesterday wanting you to be here to play with them, to give them a little brother to tease and spoil, remembering what happened .  We know that you are so close to us in spirit but if we could only touch you and hold you, I'd give up almost anything.  We all know that we are going to be together forever, that we will get the chance to raise you from a baby and have you in our family, but I miss that you won't grow up with the kids, in our family here.  I'm sure Heavenly Father will make it worth it, He loves us and wants us to be happy and has said that "all will be returned to us".  Until then, we will trust and know it will be okay.  He has promised that blessings will come from this and if this helps us all return to Heaven together, it will be worth it.  We miss you baby.
On your angel day we talked a lot together with the kids, wrote in our journals about you and shared that with each other at the graveyard.  We brought you flowers-irises, a ton of them.  We each sent you a blue balloon and wrote notes to you.  The kids made some snow globes for you and left them at your grave.  We sang our family songs and talked to you.  We took and kids out to dinner at Brick Oven because Aunt Leti offered to pay for dinner out and I think it helped the kids.  We didn't go until about 9 pm but we were so lucky-we met the manager, a man named Paul Morris and he talked soccer with the boys and Disney store with the girls and took them on a tour to see the Rootbeer vats and restaurant and sample the huge homemade cookies.  He asked us to come back and he would take the kids back to make their own pizzas and finish the tour and he said to call him to get deals at the Disney store because that is where his wife works.  He was super friendly and without knowing helped our kids have a great day-we are super grateful to him.  The kids had a great time.
When we got home, I was in bed reading about the Atonement and thinking about you.  I felt God tell me that you were one of His very special and pure children, that you had made choices in premortality that made it so you were priviledged to return to Him early, that you didn't have to go through the test that earth life is, that He had chosen you to do a different work-to bring our family and maybe even other family members back to Heavenly Father together.  Your baby blessing says that you will "help our family reach Eternal Family Status" and I really believe that is true.  Thank you Jacob.  I love you so much.  Love, Mommy

I cry myself to sleep every night, when I look at my blanket with your pictures.
I still miss you and love you, you are my top priorty to get to heaven.
I try to follow everything god tells me to do so I can see you again, I almost started crying at school today, thank you for being my brother, your mommy still loves you, and so do I.
your death has helped me be a better person, thank you, for helping me along the strait and narrow path.
I will never forget you. thank you for living long enough for us to get affection for you, and get to know you.
I love you. I hope you have a great birthday .
Happy birthday, my dear brother, I love you. I am happy to have the honor of being your sister.

- your older sibling, that still loves and misses you, Rae'lynn


                                                     love is everlasting, nomaterwhat.
                                                           especially for my dear brother,
                                                                     Jacob 

Happy Birthday!  You would be 3 today.  We had a party for you on Saturday at the church with Nancy and Steve and kids, Jonathan, Stef and kids, Melissa, and Grandma and Grandpa Barker.  We had cake and ice cream.  We did a pinata-I think you would have liked it a lot and we played games and did sack races.  We hope you were watching from Heaven.  Daddy gave a little speech about how you are watching us and interacting with us and how we can talk to you when we need to.  I really liked that.  He misses you so much too.  Your brothers and sisters miss you and love you.  You will always be remembered.  We are taking your blankets (the teddy blankets) to a family who lost their little boy, Clark, in December.  He has 3 siblings and we will take them each a blanket to hopefully comfort them and let them know that they are not alone, that their brother is with them.  We hope this act helps to keep you alive in our hearts and minds and adds to your purpose in coming to earth to be with us for a short while.  We have hope in our Savior and know that we will be with you again.  We love you so much and miss you.  We put flowers, balloons, toys, and pinwheels.  We know you can't use them but we want you to know we are thinking of you.  Jon and Jamie Watkin just dropped off flowers for you too.
Love, your family

Jacob, I miss you with all my heart, I love you. We have celebrated to many holidays without you, each holiday my heart breaks because you are not here to celebrate the joy that each holiday brings. My heart is not complete without you. My eyes fill up with tears each time I think about you. I know that soon I will be with you in the ressurrection, But I will mourn until then. At the end of scriptures, Junior always anounces that before bed we must do a fam'ly hug. Our family hug is never complete without you. I will never forget you until the day I die. I remember your sweet little laugh. Remember that you are still my brother(my favorite one, the other two are annoying)

- your dear, and faithful sister,Rae'lynn
P.S. I LOVE YOU!